don’t gain the world and loose your soul

“I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”

Do you ever get those days where you can’t stop thinking? The rain was pounding so hard against the window on friday morning and I couldn’t even get out of bed for my fitness class. Just felt like one of those mornings where I wanted to hide under the duvet forever. I had an interview and photoshoot in the afternoon for the RSAMD’s 60th birthday campaign and it was possibly the worst day for me to get nostalgic about uni. My head was elsewhere – writing lists and mind maps in my head about stuff I’m wanting to do, and even drawing out a new tattoo in my brain. I regret wearing the dress I wore and I really hope my answers weren’t as stupid as I felt they were (stuttering, blinking and blushing seems to be my forte)

We couldn’t get Millie to go in her travel box to take her to the vets later on that day, and I cried! It was so frustrating. My dad ended up coming over and said her skin was clearing up anyways so we’ll leave it a few weeks and if shes still got her allergies by then he will take her. Seriously though, I just needed an excuse to get teary and after that I was fine. We made awesome fajitas and I sorted out my ‘painty clothes’ for work out my wardrobe. I got into my jammies and painted my nails with models own ‘red alert’, and it perfectly matched my paul frank hoodie. After a few cups of tea, some death cab, and a cuddle with the mister all is well again. Maybe girls are kinda like werewolfs? We sense the bad weather coming and it gets us all nervy? Who knows.

Oh aye, and my fringe has pretty much grown out already, I guess that means the rest of my hair is on its way to ‘long-ness’ too 🙂 So on saturday morning I kicked myself out of bed super early and David ran me to Body Combat. I walked home and was knackered after it. We got ready and went into town to Made In The Shade’s first saturday shopping event at a very famous old market in Glasgow, The barras!

 Click on their blog to see what I’m talking about. I didn’t buy anything but will defo be going back 🙂 We pondered around a few shops and naughtily ended up buying a couple of canvasses for the flat! The first picture in this post is one of them (viva la Bansky) and the second is a close up of a VW Camper Van. I’m saying ‘naughtily bought’… because I’ve spent years painting canvasses for other people (have a nosy on my website if you are wanting a peek) but when it comes to one for myself I just don’t have the time. David made us a yummy little dinner and are just settling down to watch TV and maybe a film later. David was SO proud of the steak and potato dinner he made us, we’re both still adjusting to living away from home for the first time, and cooking has been a massive learning curve…

So a pat on the back for David! It looks pretty mish mash on the plate but I promise it was mega yummy. My cooking skillz are still pretty pants, so any hints or tips feel free to fire them my way 😉 So I can get better than him, ovb! haha.

I really need to do something about all this space dust that is floating around in my head right now. I’m thinking about halloween (was oogling at all the fab spooky treats in m&s!) work, my website, christmas, tattoos, having a carboot sale, selling more on ebay, wanting to see the bestie more… the list goes on. I’ve also been thinking about the little blog of horrors and what direction it is going in. Reaching nearly 400 followers is insane in my books, and the mental thing is that I really adore you all and the sweet comments and support you give me. Please know that your input is special to me, and what I’d really like to know is what you would like to see more of. What interests you most about me, my life and other strange goings on? My blog isn’t really fashion related, or beauty… infact I don’t know what it is. But if you keep reading then I’ll keep writing 🙂

Ayden x